Pornograpy, Quilting, and Wedding Rings

Piles of laundry: 3 dirty, 2 clean, and 1 unknown (will just treat it as dirty)
Most recently watched movie: Finding Nemo
In the Attic: So who the hell is going to read this, anyway?

I've checked my blog around 11 times since posting the first one yesterday. (That's a low estimate. I have not actually kept a count of the number of times I've checked it. I'm certain it's higher, but don't really want to confess it.) I'm finding I'm thinking about my blog several times an hour. I wonder about who's reading it and I plan out the content of future postings. The emotional response to becomming a new "blogger" is just like getting your first boyfriend, when all of your thoughts revolve around what he may be doing and when you'll next see each other. Wanting to call him all the time. (But knowing you shouldn't.) So I guess I've realized a little love affair with my new blog medium. I'm sure it's simply puppy love, and that, just like any relationship, the newness will wear off over time, and posting will become a chore, as my blog and I become more comfortable with each other. Soon we'll be telling each other, "I feel like I don't even know you any more. What happened to the blog I once fell in love with?"

First thoughts immediately after posting Blog #1: Is it really out there in cyberspace? Is it really out there, available for anyone to read? Or is it just something that registers only on my computer from home? UPDATE: I now have verification from an outside source that it has registered on a number of other computers. It is, in fact, out there.

Next thoughts: If it really is accessible to anyone, than who in the world would want to read it? Sure, I've notified a circle of family and friends to be on the watch, (and even they are questionable!) but other than them, who would want to read this blog, and what's more, how would they come across it? Google searches from a 15-year-old boy looking for free pornography? A 50-year-old woman searching for quilting patterns? A newly engaged couple hunting for platinum wedding rings? I suppose there's a chance, now that I've placed those key words on my site. But unlikely, I know.

Current thoughts: What if I want to vent about a person, and that same individual reads my blog and identifies him or herself in my post? Guess I should have thought of that before notifying "the circle" that I'd be here... But I can't imagine not sharing my new hobby with them. Hmmm.... How do other bloggers handle this?

This morning, when I checked my blog, and it was still here, I found my first comment! What delight! What elation! Unfortunately, it turned out to be a spammy comment, however, advertising a gas card. So I deleted it. Not because the content had absolutely nothing to do with my post, but because of the principle that if someone wants to post a comment, he should at least have the decency to read my posting first. I felt slightly deflated at the thought that the only one to come across my blog was a computer. A computer, who didn't even bother to read my post.

I guess the moral of the story is that, whether or not a human being is actually reading my writing, it's the chance that someone might read it that is fueling me to continue. And for now, that is providing just enough difference from journaling in a regular old Word Document to keep me going with the blog.